10 things.....

Here's how it goes: List ten things you would like to say to ten people you know but you never will, for whatever reason. Do not put their names, anonymity promotes honesty. This is going to be great therapy for me. If you decide to do this on your blog, let me know so I can go read yours too.

1. I truly love you and it hurts that I can never tell you because I know that you would let me down gently and then disappear from my life because it would be uncomfortable from that point on. I truly need you in my life even if what we have is not exactly what I have in mind, it's better than nothing. You are a wonderful man and I hope you find true love and happiness, you deserve it.

2. You fucking rat bastard. I blame you for ruining my entire life by telling me lie after lie after lie and causing me to waste the best years of my life, the years where I might have found the man of my dreams and had children, a life instead of nothing. You mother fucking creep, I hope your dick turns black and falls off.

3. Sweety, I love you very much but you are wrong more than you are right and you are causing the pain in your life, not others. I've tried to tell you over and over what you need to do but you don't listen so I'll just smile and nod and continue to watch the spiral downfall that you're in. Oh and keep your mitts off.

4. You fucking rat bastard. Why couldn't you have loved me even just a little? A phone call, a once a month visit, a present now and then...time, your precious time...something and now you're dead so I can't tell you that you were a selfish prick...dying, that's not fair!!!

5. Oh boy, you really need therapy child, seriously and your low self-esteem is causing you to make one big mistake after the other. Just STOP...just stop. Step back and look at what you've done and don't do it anymore. No one can fix it but you so git ta fixin!

6. I can never tell you that I'm truly not a happy person, that I'm lonely more than you know and I know that I've screwed up and now I'm just playing the hand I was dealt till the game is over. It's like playing monopoly and my opponent owns boardwalk, park place, marvin gardens and the railroads and I have baltic ave. It's only a matter of time...BUT...I can't have you worrying about me so that stupid fake smile remains on my face...pretty good huh, you never even knew.

7. Ok, so I was wrong, it was all my fault and I'm sorry. If I had it do to all over again, I wouldn't have. Not that everything would have been just rosy, it would still have needed a lot of work but looking back, I think it was fixable. How tragic...for me anyway.

8. This goes to 2 people...you are on my list and you damn well know why (the list is a list of people I plan to take out of this world if I'm ever diagnosed as terminal with nothing to lose)!!!

9. I loved you and would have spent the rest of my life with you if only you hadn't turned out to be certifiably insane. But you fooled me for nearly 2 years....good job, now go weave a basket. Can I pick em or what?

10. I lied to you about your wedding dress, I thought it looked horrible on you but you already paid for it so "Oh wow, that's really beautiful" is what you got....next time ask BEFORE buying.

This reminds me of Post Secret and this weeks is a good one.